THE PURSUER
Life has a funny way of bringing about twists and turns, and currently, I have been trying to navigate my life as the twists and turns have come up, and if I’m being honest, some days it’s been very hard for me. Stressors have seemed to scream a bit louder in my mind and ears, feelings of hopelessness have resurfaced more than once, and trying to pursue God during this particular time has been even harder.
The fire that was burning strong has simmered down in such a way, and all I see now is the smoke from the ashes of a fire that has been completely blown out. There is smoke still coming from those ashes thankfully, which lets me know my zeal is not completely gone, but it doesn’t feel good. It has made me question the God I know, and become hard on myself for not wanting to read, not wanting to listen to a bunch of sermons, not wanting to sit in His presence, and not even wanting to be in this space because I feel like I am upsetting God.
Despite my feelings, one thing that continues to come to my mind is that HE CHOSE ME BEFORE I EVEN CHOSE HIM. He is the God who PURSUES and CHASES relentlessly. He is so DEEPLY COMMITTED TO ME. And even when I don’t feel “like it” He still does, and that alone I am beyond grateful for.
Last time I told y’all, I wanted to run and hide, but this time I’m sitting and being still letting him continue to pursue me in even my discomfort. I’m learning more about His love and how unconditional it is, and there’s nothing that He won’t do to pull me back into him. But more realistically, there will be moments in your relationship with God where it feels a bit bland and it seems like you are just going through the days nonchalantly. But even in those moments, you are still being pursued by the One who has the whole world In His hands.
Take this reminder if you have ever felt like me before, or if you currently feel like this;
“You are the object of God’s affection, He has relentlessly pursued and will continue to PURSUE you!”
XOXO,
An Ordinary Woman Chasing After An Extraordinary God